I'm a 48 year old man who kept their nose out of the troubles but Mr Black's death, as with others in recent years, has made it abundantly clear that the troubles did not keep its nose out of me.
I tried to find the outrage in me regarding the attacks on Mssrs Black, Heffron, Kerr etc. and it's not there. I feel an anger at those who will not deliver a better life to the upcoming generation but deaths, like hovering helicopters, security alerts and riots are not what they should be to me.
Speaking to friends and family of the same age, I am met with a mundane tone akin to mine with conversations about Jimmy Savile or the BBC raising more interested debate. It's wrong, and I know it's wrong but I don't feel callous, though I probably should but I do most certainly feel desensitised by so many circumstances that have dominated do much of my existence.
I hate feeling this way but I must be honest and maybe it's a little insight for younger ones on here.